22-04-2020, 02:52 PM
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Bathroon vich freh hon toh baad jiven hi main bahar aayi tan darwaja kol mere teh ravi da maal giriya hoya jis nu dekh keh mallo mali mera hassa nikal gya. mall nu dekh keh car da sara scene mere dimag vich ghum gya teh meri phuddi vich fir toh kuch hon laga.
eh mere naal pehli vari ho rehya c ki ehni chudai toh baad haje v mainu phuddi vich lun chahida c. Kujh hi time pehlan mera teh ravi da mall meri phuiddi vichon beh rehya c teh hun fer ton mainu lun da talab lag gayi. Kujh hi time pehlan kida main bathoom vich bhaj keh gayi c apne putt toh changi tara chudan toh baad jado ki mera gharwala 3 foot di duri teh c.
pichle 2 ghante vich hoi meri teh ravi di cgudai neh meri aag ehni bhadka ditti ki main hun ravi layi kujh bhi kar sakdi c. is lambi chuai neh mera andarla gashti puna bhadka ditta c jis nu main bahut pehlan maar ditta c.
jiven jiven main car val ja rahi c main apne dimag vich plan bana rahi c ki kis tara pure raste main teh ravi chudai karangeh. Main aaj bahut khulla mehsoos kar rahi c, kisseh da v darr nahin c hun mainu, ik navi umang c mere andar chdai nu lej keh. mere dimag vich ik idea jo risky tan c par jeh kamyab ho gya tah usto milan valle maje da koi anth nahin c.
jidan hi main car deh kol pahunchi ik najar main jagtar val mari teh duji apne putt vall, jidan doweh jaan egal kar rahe c ik dimag mere dimag vich hulchul ho gayi. dona nu gal karda dekh mainu sharam aa gayi teh us sharam neh mere puree sarir vich ik jhurjhuri fer ditti.
"haye rabba main jagtar naal dokha kitta, teh ravi naal chudai karkeh main ravi nu v dokha ditta, hayee rabba eh ki ho gya mere toh, mere dimag nu ki hop gya c jo eh kar baitha." dona nu gal karda dekh ik piyo teh putt nu gal karda dekh mere andar kayi sawal khare ho gaye teh sharmindegi neh mainu purra pani pani kar ditta.
bus kujh waqt pehlan main kive apni teh ravi di chudai deh sapne leh rahe c teh kive kive deh supne leh rahi c. ik dum jidan mere uttar pahar hi gir gaya howe mainu istara lagan lagga. asi dowa nu jo kitta us baare soch keh meriaan akhan bhar aaian, teh main utteh hi kol rakhe hoye table teh ruk gayi teh bahane naal apna theek karan lagi. par main apne aap nu kabu paun layi eh kitta c ta jo jagtar nu koi shaak na ho jawe.
mere teh ravi vich jo hoya eh dobaara nahin huna chahida.
sana dona nu chudai vich jina marji maja miliya howe, par jo sharam teh sharmindagi mainu hun ho rahi c, oh mainu aage wadan toh rok rahi c. eh main kiwe kar sakdi ha? oh mera apna saga putt hai. teh jagtar? osda pichle kujh sallan toh mere naal jeho ja v bartav hove par main apni marriage nu bachaan layi koshish kardi rahangi.
aur waiseh bhi mera teh ravi da future ki hovega? main apne maje layi usda aaon wala sama nahin kharab kar sakdi. ki main apni chudai di tripti layi mere teh jagtar deh relation nu kharab kar sakdi haan? shayad nahin sirf ik jisam di aag piccheh main ehna kujh daa t6eh nahin laga sakdi. hun main apna mann paka bana leya c ki ravi teh mere rishte nu main koi barhava nahin dena. aaj toh baad balki hune toh main sirf ik changi maa teh ik changi patni ban keh dikhauna hai.
"bhencho, nimmi toh jaldi nahin kar sakdi. ehna time laga ditta". main bina koi face expression deh jagtar val dekh rahi c jo ki car deh doh la keh khara c. teh hamesha wang sareya hoya moh bana keh mere wal dekh rahe c.
Main sharmindagi karkeh us wal hi dekh rahi c, jagtar neh mere pichoon aa rahi kuri wal dekhya teh ravi nu v kohni naal ishara kitta ki oh v kuri wal dekhe. Ravi neh ik sarsari jahi najar kuri wal mari teh fer dobara apne phone vich kujh dekhan lag gya. mainu ik gal di tan khushi hoi ki ravi apne piyo warga nahin hai.
Oh kuri jehri nikal keh gayi c mushkil naal 20-21 saalla di honi hai. banglore deh mahool deh hisab naal usne kapre v usi tara paye hoye c. sleevless t shirt teh jeans wali shorts nal slippers. teh kuri shayad punjab di yan dilli walon lagdi c kyunki uhda rang kafi gora c. teh jis tara uhneh kapre paye c koi v mard us wal dekhe ga hi,par jagtar v. mere samne hi oh us kuri nu khaan wali najran nal dekh rehya c.
Main pata nahi kehreh khayala vich khoi hi c ki jagtar di awaaz mere kanna vich payi. "chall hun keh eteh hi khare rehna sari umaar, main bhukh nall mareya ja rehya teh eh pata nahin kere khawab layi jandi hai. main tan tang aa geya es janani toh".
Jagtar deh is raviyeh toh mai anjaan nahin c par eh sab kujh aaj ravi deh samne ho rehya c, par fer v main apne mann nu paka kita ki mere teh jagtar vich jo v chal rehya us karkeh main ravi nall oh dobara nahin karna. ravi di future life bachaun waste mainu changi patni wang rehna pehna hai jida main pehlan rehndi c. jagtar diyaan galla sun keh main chup kar jandi c teh aago kujh nahin kehndi c. main murr us tara rehan da faisla kar leya.
jehri kujh ghanta ka pehla gashtian wang apne putt toh chud rahi c oh aurat nu main fir toh apne andar mar ditti. eh jo v c changa nahin ho rehya jis karkeh jagtar naal main khul keh gall karan da faisla kitta. sadde vich ehja v kujh nahin jo kade theek v na ho sake.
Main chu karkeh car kol gayi teh jagtar deh dusre passe ja keh khar gayi. hun tak jo hoya c usnu ignore karkeh main khush hon da natak karan laggi. jidan hi main jagtar naal ja keh khari hoi ravi mere wal dekhan lagga, mainu pata c ki ravi mainu sawaliyaa najaran naal dekh rehya hai par main injh behave kitta ki oh uteh hai hi nahin.
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"mummy nu ki ho gya". main bahut jayada hairan c. asin hune tohri der pehla duniya di sab toh wadiya chudai kar keh hate c teh asi ik duje nu changi tara chusya teh chudya c. fer mummy ehdan kyun behave kar rahe neh. ik dam ehja ki ho gya ki mummy neh mere wal dekhya v nahin.
uhna wal dekh lag rehya c ki oh roo keh v aaye neh. Eh bencho sala ho ki rehya. Teh dad nu ki hoya oh mummy naal ehdan kyun gall kar rahe neh. ravi yaar pakka koi tan salla chakar hai dona da jo mainu das nahin rahe.
main haje eh soch hi rehya c ki mere dimaag vich aaya ki kiteh dad nu pata tan nahin lag geya, dad neh sanu kiteh dekh tan nahin litta. nahin nahin jekar dekh litta hunda hun tak dad neh mainu mar hi dena c.
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"Shukar hai nimmi toh aa gayi". oh haje v gusse vich mere wal dekh rehya c. "challo hun dasso kite khana hai is dhabe teh yaan fer agle koi restaurant teh"? jagtar neh ravi wal dekh keh puchhya.
Ravi apne khayala vich khoya hoya c teh main apne. sade dona kolo jawab na hon karkeh jagtar neh aap hi fisala kar leya.
"oh dekho 1 km baad ik punjabi Restaurant hai." Haweli - duniya da sab toh wadiya punjabi khaana. Poster dekh keh tan lagda hai ki restaurant wadiya hona, ki kehna ravi. ki khan da mann hai veg keh non-veg?
"yes dekhan nu tan wadiya lagda, hmmm non-veg khan nu bara dil kar rehya hai." Ravi neh kehya, oh haje v phone vich pata nahin ki dekh rehya c.
Fer uhneh mere wal dekhya teh ik shararti muskaan nal kehya "non-veg vich agar fish mil jawe tan maja aa jawe"
Ravi di gal sun keh sharam nal mere gall lall ho gaye. hun khul keh double meaning gall kar rehya c. "haye rabba, phudi chatwaye nu v arsa ho gya." ik wari mere dimag vich aaya teh mera hassa nikal gya, par duje pal hi main apne aap teh kabu paaya teh apne nall kita hoya wada yaad kita.
Apne aap teh kabu paa keh main ravi wal ghuri vaat keh dekhya teh kalle bull hilla keh us nu NAA kehya.
par pata nahin main eh shabad kida bol gaye "hmm, fish theek hai naale fresh fish tan hundi v bahut swaad hai."
"bahut wadiya, challo fer fata fat gaddi vich baitho teh pahunchiye apni manjil teh, poster teh lagya hoya sign keh rehya hai ki sirf 1km dor hi hai, asin 10 mts vich uteh pahunch jana hai." ehni gal kar keh asi sarre gaddi vich baithan lage.
Ravi bari utsukta naal mere baithan da intjar kar rehya c. usnu shayad lagya c ki pehlan di tara main usdi godi vich bathungi., par main usde upar jaroor baithi par uhdeh lun teh nahin balki pattan teh par oh v udar leh passe jider box paye hoye c, tan jo mere ravi naal main jayada touch na hova. Boxes nu hor tohra jehya daba keh main comfortable ho keh baithan di koshish kar rahi c.
Aaramdayak jaga na banan karkeh main tak keh boxes wal dhyan naal dekhya, eh sab karde nu main ravi deyan akhaan di tapish apne shareer teh mehsoos kar sakdi c, par main jina ho sake us ton duri bana keh rakhan di koshish kar rahi c.
Agar Main, shoteh dabbya nu agar main sahi tarike naal adjust kara tan piccheh paye dabbya upar aa sakde neh. hmm eh theek rahega. fer main dhyan naal dekhya ki jehra box bichli seat teh peya hai us vich jayada saman nahin hai, jo ravi neh jald baji vich hi rakhe c.
ik 20 saal deh muneh toh ehni expect nahin kar sakdeh ko is cheez wal dhyan dawe. main us vich paye kapreya nu sahi tareke naal tah laga ditte teh dabbe deh ik passe set kar ditte, kush kapre main seat de thale rakh ditteh pairan kol jis naal dabbe vich bahut jaga ban gayi.
dabbe nu ik paseyo changi tara jor lagan naal oh ikatha ho gya teh hun mainu baithan vich koi dikat nahin c. mainu apne teh maan mehsoos hoya. hun main aaram naal baith sakdi c.
eh sab main is layi kita c ki agar main fer dobara ravi deh upar baithi rehndi tan main apne aap nu roknahin pana c teh fer dobara sariyan hadda par kar janiya c jo ki main nahin chahundi c. Par mainu nahin pata c ki jo main eh jaga banayi hai eh mere kinneh kam aaon wali hai.
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"Hun bhencho eh ki sayapa hai" kush tan garbar hai. "mummy neh sara saman hilla keh jaga bana layi, ehna maja millan toh baad v mummy main mere uppar kyun nahin baithna chahundeh? meri tan samaj toh bahar hai bhencho sala ho ki rehya."
Mummy nu eh sab galat kyun lag rehya? main mummy nu kinna payar karda. jado tak main uhna naal hai main uhna di puri care karunga dad toh v jayada. hun tan bund marawe bapu. Waiseh v jis hisab naal mummy nu treat kar rahe neh gandu ho gya lagda bapu mera.
Mainu hun pata karna pehna mummy ehdan kyun behave kar rahe neh. shayad ik hi postion vich karan naal uhna kiteh koi takleef tan nahin ho gayi, bencho kiteh jayada jor di tan nahin phudi marli main mummy di. Ho v sakda hai hai main haje 20 saal da hi han josh vich aa keh kiteh jayada jor di tan nahin ho gya.
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"Mummy, tusi theek ho? main kujh galat kitta?" ravi di sawal sun keh mainu usteh bahut taras aaya. is vich usdi koi galti nahin c. mainu khayal rakhna chahida c. main maa han usdi. mainu eh sab shuru hon toh pehlan rok dena chahida c.
main usde gall teh hath ferde hoye holi jahe kehya, "ravi mainu maafkarde, sadevich jo kush v hoya, eh dobara nahin ho sakda, theek hai?"
Meri gall sun keh ravi da dil tut gya. usda tutya hoya dil teh utrya hoya muh dekh mere dil vich v ik tees lagi, "Toh kush v galat nahin kitta, saade vich jo kush v hoya us naal mainu life vich pehli vaari ehna maja milliya." teh main uhnu ik smile ditti.
"Par eh dobara nahin ho sakda, theek hai?" haje asi gal kar hi rahe c ki jagtar neh gaane hauli kitte.
"waiseh nimmi toh ehna time kyun laga ditta bathroom vich? mainu eh samaj nahin aaondi tainu bathroom vich eh ki karna hunda?" Main rearview shesshe vich jagtar wal dekhya jo ki ik kamina hassi hass rehya c.
Eh hassi main pehlan v kayi vari dekh chuki haa, eh hassa uhdon aaonda hai jadooh sharab de nashe vich yaan mainu tang karan layi aaonda hai, yaan fer mere naal laran da koi bahan chahida hunda hai. fer main usdiyaan akhaan vich dekhya teh usi waqt mainu samaj aa gya ki eh kutta gaddi chalaonda hoya sharab pee rehya hai.
Ehneh pakka kiteh na kiteh sharab di botle chupa keh rakhi hai. Is sharab peen di aadat toh main anjaan nahin c. hun tan main gaur v nahin kardi c keh eh kinni drink kardeh neh.
Mainu pata hai ki beshoomar paisa aaon naal isda dimag kharab ho gya hai teh hun eh ravi nu hostel toh leh keh jana jisteh oh haje v naraj c ki jo eh chahundeh c ravi neh oh nahi kita.
Mainu jagtar di is halat teh usnal hamdardi c. par hun isdi eh aadat toh main tang aa gayi c. main is toh azaad ho keh rehna chahundi c. par fr v main aapne maan nu samjaya teh is naal rehan da faisla kar chuki c.
Mainu eh v yakeen c ki eh ehni nahin peengeh jis naal sade sareyan di jaan khatre vich pave, par kehndeh neh sharabi da kujh nahin pata lagda. sehat wallo takra shareer c jis karkeh khurak v ohdan di c teh sharab da nasha v late hi charda c. normally v jagtar 7 peg tan la hi lehnda c.
"mainu haje tak yakeen nahin hunda koi ehna time bathroom vich kida laga sakda hai? mainu pata hai ki tu is trip teh aaona nahin chahundi c par tere eh bathroom deh trip kar keh baar baar rukan naal appan ghar pahuchan vich late ho jana. sara plan hil jana, tainu hor koi problem tan nahin?" apne hath naal hawa vich hilaondeh hoye kehya.
Jehri jagtar problem di gal kar rehya c oh main jandi c, teh jagtar v janda c ki us problem da jikar hundeh hi mere teh ki beet di c. Kujh saal pehlan main birth pills khaniya band kar dittian c. ravi v haje jayada wada nahin c teh ik din sharab ddeh nashe vich jagtar neh mainu far leya teh changi chudai kitti. josh josh vich mainu v khayal na rehya ki main goliyan khanayi band kar dittian neh. ohi hoya jisda dar c. main pregnant ho gayi.
Jado mere periods miss hoye tan main pehlan dhyan nahin ditta kai wari time aage piccheh ho janda hai. jado time 1 hafta uppar ho gya tan mainu lagya ki doctor naal consult kar lehna chahida hai. Doctor neh jado check kita tan usne mainu dasya ki main pregnant ha.
mainu lagya jagtar eh khabar sun keh khush howega kyunki ik wari fer toh ghar vich ehni wadi khushi aa rahi c. jado main eh khabar jagtar nu dasi tan eh tan ik dam taish vich aa gaye ki eh koi umar hai bachheh karan di, sharekke wale ki kehngeh ki munda bus kujh salla vich college jaan wala teh eh dono jaane es kaam nu lag gaye.
"Toh ehni laparwah kida ho sakdi hai nimmi, naale teri oh dawayi kitteh hai jis nal bachha nahin hunda, toh ehn murkh kida ho gayi," eh sab jagtar neh iko sah vich bol ditta teh hor pata nahin ki ki boli gaye. Jina dukh usdin jagtar neh mainu ditta c oh main kade das nahin sakdi.
Kafi time tak jagtar neh mere nal gal nahin kitti, har roj raj keh sharab vich ghar aaona teh aa keh bas do chaar galla kadnian teh so jana. Fer es sab toh teh ravi bare soch keh main abortion da faisla kitta teh bina kise nu dase abortion karwa aai. mere andar us waqt sab kujh mar chukya c.
jado jagtar ghar aaye tan main roti dindeh hoye bas ehna hi keh paayi, main abortion karwa ditta hai. tusi har roj sharab na piya karo. jagtar bus mere muh wal hi dekhdeh rahe. Main andron tut chuki c, ravi deh samne kujh nahin kehna chahundi c is layi bathroom vich ja keh takriban do tin ghante tak rondi rahi. jado jagtar nu samaj aaya ki main ki kar aayi ha teh kujh sharab da nasha uttrya tan bathroom da darwaja khar ka keh maafi mangan lage. usdin v jagtar neh bahut kujh kehya mainu manaon layi eh v kehya ki appan ik wari hor try kar lehneh ha.
Eh karan c jis naal mere teh jagtar vich duri aa gayi c. Par aaj fer, sharab deh nashe vich, jagtar neh ohi problem wali gall cher ditti c jis naal mere andar ik tees jahi lagi, na chahundeh hoye v merian akhan bhar aaian, main kujh na bol saki.
Asin dowe ik duje kina payar karde c. jagtar ne ik wari mere wal sheshe vichon dekhya, jis vich sirf meramuh hi najar aa rehya c. hor usnu kujh najar nahin aaya us vich lokya hoya dard v nahin.
"nimmi, tera drama fer shuru ho gya ron wala." mere wal ghuri vat ke dekhya. Nashe vich oh ki bol gya jad usnu pata lagya tan ik dum apni awaaz vich narmi leyandeh hoye, "Nimmi mera oh matlab nahin c, main tan bas ehi keh rehya c ki agar appa bar bar bathroom layi ruka geh tan ghar pahuchan vich late ho jana. haje appa 2 din hor safar karna." ik wari fer mere wal dekhya "dekh nimmi, main sorry feel karda apne subah layi, tainu pata tan hai ehna saman set karna fer do din layi car chalaona is sab neh mainu khija ditta.
"Mera maksad tainu dukhi karna nahin c, main maaf kardi." fer mere wal dekhdeh hoye kehya.
Main v usi tara sheshe vichon gusse naal jagtar wal dekhya, jo ki hun road wal dekhrehya c, teh usi waqt main apne man andar ik faisla kitta. mere andar ehna gussa wad gya ki mainu aap samaj nahin aayi ki main ehda kida jagtar bare soch sakdi ha. Bencho tu hai is kabil, khassi sala. jehre hath tohri der pehlan mere putt deh gall sehla rahe c usnu samja rahe c ohi hath hun haul hauli usdeh muh toh hundeh hoye chaure seneh teh pahunch gaye teh othon hunda hoya sida uhdeh lun teh ja tikya.
Shaitani hassi pure chereh teh dekhi ja sakdi c, main hun hauli hauli ravi deh lun nu palosan lagi, jida mere hath usde lun tikiya lun neh jhatkeh marne shuru kar ditte.
Jagtar di berukhi neh mere andar di kaam vasna nu jaga ditta. ik wari fer jagtar nu apne man vich gaal kadi"bund marawe jagtar jite marji. tainu ki pata haram deya main picchli seat te ki gul khalare neh." bahut ho gya ik changi patni da farz nibhaondeh hoye, meri har ik koshish aaj jagtar neh khatam kar ditti.
Mere teh jagtar vich jo c oh khatam hoya hai baki kujh nahin. eteh main chup reh keh ik changi patni da farz nibha rahi c par jagtar neh abortion wali gal kar keh sab kujh tar tar kar ditta oh v mere putt de samneh.
mere andar ik wari fer toh kujh hoya, eh pehlan v hoya c jado ravi nh mainu chodya c, par hun mere andar ik vari
fer kamuk aurat neh janam leh leya.
jeh main apne putt di gashti bani ha tan fer main ehji gashti ban keh dikhaongi ki koi soch v nahin sakda. "to akhir karna ki hai nimmi" mere andron fer ik wari awaaz aayi. Jagtar toh badla lehna hun tan main.
sadi 20 saal viyahi jinagi vich jagtar neh mere naal jo salok kita c oh saara mainu yaad aaon laga. oh sab galla yaad karkeh main man vich socheya, "theek kita tusi aaj, jeh tusi aaj eh bartav mere naal karde tan main andro andro mar jana c. theek hai tusi meri life kharab kitti hai hun dekhmain ki kardi ha, apne putt toh fer chudwaongi oh v duji wari."
Mera fiasla badlan da karan ehi c ki jo kujh nere teh jagtar vich c oh khatam. main ravi di life karkeh jagtar nu chad keh tan nahin jaongi par sade vich pati patni wala rishta, mere najar vich tn khatam. Waiseh v eh rishta ta kafi time toh khatam ho cgukya c, par mainu aaj realize hoya. ehna saala toh sharab pee keh mainu galla kadniyan, business trip teh ja keh gashtian chudniayan, eh sba neh mainu apne hi putt toh chudan layi majboor kar ditta.
Kamini hassi naal main mehsoos kitta ki is trip teh aaon naal mere teh ravi deh vich kujh nawa shuru ho gya. Shayad eh ik dujhe di chudai toh v wad keh hai. eh hai tan bahut kujh, eh ki hai is bare main baad vich socbhungi par is waqt, mainu payaar di nahin kissi hor chiz di lor hai.
Main hune isi waqt chudai karni oh v ehni buri tara ki koi soch v na sake. mere haath haje v ravi deh lun teh chal rehya c, apne dimag nu ikagar karkeh main badi halemi naal jagtar nu kehya, "main jandi ha mere bathroom jan karkeh time ho gya, main v sorry ha, par sach eh hai ki Nirmal Didi da phone aa gya c, push rahe c ki raste vich koi takleef tan nahin ho rahi teh sade kol ruk keh jaongeh yan sida ghar jaongeh."
"ohnu v kinni fikar hai, ehna lamba safar karna kehra saukha."
"han han mainu pata uhnu kinni fikar hai. teri hi bhen hai, bhenchoda"main man vich socheya.
Nirmal bare sun keh jagtar da mood hor theek ho gya, "Harban da ki hall hai?"
"Nirmal didi kehndeh c ki hun dawaian da asar hona shuru hoya, pehlan nalo kafi fark hai."
ik passe main jagtar naal gal kar rahi c teh duje passe main ravi da haath fareya teh apne pattan utteh rakh ditta- jehra haath pehlan uhneh mainu garam karan layi rakhya c.
Jidan hi main ravi da haath apne patta teh rakhya, uhnhe mere wal sawilya najar nal dekhya. Main bullan teh hassa leya kehya "kujh nahin hunda", apne khasan wal dekhya teh hauli jahi uhdi kan vich kehya "bund marawe tera piyo."
Ravi nu hor izzajat di lor nahin c, mere walo pehal paa keh ohde bullan teh hassa a geya teh sida usneh apna haath meri tapdi phudi teh rakh ditta.
Bathroon vich freh hon toh baad jiven hi main bahar aayi tan darwaja kol mere teh ravi da maal giriya hoya jis nu dekh keh mallo mali mera hassa nikal gya. mall nu dekh keh car da sara scene mere dimag vich ghum gya teh meri phuddi vich fir toh kuch hon laga.
eh mere naal pehli vari ho rehya c ki ehni chudai toh baad haje v mainu phuddi vich lun chahida c. Kujh hi time pehlan mera teh ravi da mall meri phuiddi vichon beh rehya c teh hun fer ton mainu lun da talab lag gayi. Kujh hi time pehlan kida main bathoom vich bhaj keh gayi c apne putt toh changi tara chudan toh baad jado ki mera gharwala 3 foot di duri teh c.
pichle 2 ghante vich hoi meri teh ravi di cgudai neh meri aag ehni bhadka ditti ki main hun ravi layi kujh bhi kar sakdi c. is lambi chuai neh mera andarla gashti puna bhadka ditta c jis nu main bahut pehlan maar ditta c.
jiven jiven main car val ja rahi c main apne dimag vich plan bana rahi c ki kis tara pure raste main teh ravi chudai karangeh. Main aaj bahut khulla mehsoos kar rahi c, kisseh da v darr nahin c hun mainu, ik navi umang c mere andar chdai nu lej keh. mere dimag vich ik idea jo risky tan c par jeh kamyab ho gya tah usto milan valle maje da koi anth nahin c.
jidan hi main car deh kol pahunchi ik najar main jagtar val mari teh duji apne putt vall, jidan doweh jaan egal kar rahe c ik dimag mere dimag vich hulchul ho gayi. dona nu gal karda dekh mainu sharam aa gayi teh us sharam neh mere puree sarir vich ik jhurjhuri fer ditti.
"haye rabba main jagtar naal dokha kitta, teh ravi naal chudai karkeh main ravi nu v dokha ditta, hayee rabba eh ki ho gya mere toh, mere dimag nu ki hop gya c jo eh kar baitha." dona nu gal karda dekh ik piyo teh putt nu gal karda dekh mere andar kayi sawal khare ho gaye teh sharmindegi neh mainu purra pani pani kar ditta.
bus kujh waqt pehlan main kive apni teh ravi di chudai deh sapne leh rahe c teh kive kive deh supne leh rahi c. ik dum jidan mere uttar pahar hi gir gaya howe mainu istara lagan lagga. asi dowa nu jo kitta us baare soch keh meriaan akhan bhar aaian, teh main utteh hi kol rakhe hoye table teh ruk gayi teh bahane naal apna theek karan lagi. par main apne aap nu kabu paun layi eh kitta c ta jo jagtar nu koi shaak na ho jawe.
mere teh ravi vich jo hoya eh dobaara nahin huna chahida.
sana dona nu chudai vich jina marji maja miliya howe, par jo sharam teh sharmindagi mainu hun ho rahi c, oh mainu aage wadan toh rok rahi c. eh main kiwe kar sakdi ha? oh mera apna saga putt hai. teh jagtar? osda pichle kujh sallan toh mere naal jeho ja v bartav hove par main apni marriage nu bachaan layi koshish kardi rahangi.
aur waiseh bhi mera teh ravi da future ki hovega? main apne maje layi usda aaon wala sama nahin kharab kar sakdi. ki main apni chudai di tripti layi mere teh jagtar deh relation nu kharab kar sakdi haan? shayad nahin sirf ik jisam di aag piccheh main ehna kujh daa t6eh nahin laga sakdi. hun main apna mann paka bana leya c ki ravi teh mere rishte nu main koi barhava nahin dena. aaj toh baad balki hune toh main sirf ik changi maa teh ik changi patni ban keh dikhauna hai.
"bhencho, nimmi toh jaldi nahin kar sakdi. ehna time laga ditta". main bina koi face expression deh jagtar val dekh rahi c jo ki car deh doh la keh khara c. teh hamesha wang sareya hoya moh bana keh mere wal dekh rahe c.
Main sharmindagi karkeh us wal hi dekh rahi c, jagtar neh mere pichoon aa rahi kuri wal dekhya teh ravi nu v kohni naal ishara kitta ki oh v kuri wal dekhe. Ravi neh ik sarsari jahi najar kuri wal mari teh fer dobara apne phone vich kujh dekhan lag gya. mainu ik gal di tan khushi hoi ki ravi apne piyo warga nahin hai.
Oh kuri jehri nikal keh gayi c mushkil naal 20-21 saalla di honi hai. banglore deh mahool deh hisab naal usne kapre v usi tara paye hoye c. sleevless t shirt teh jeans wali shorts nal slippers. teh kuri shayad punjab di yan dilli walon lagdi c kyunki uhda rang kafi gora c. teh jis tara uhneh kapre paye c koi v mard us wal dekhe ga hi,par jagtar v. mere samne hi oh us kuri nu khaan wali najran nal dekh rehya c.
Main pata nahi kehreh khayala vich khoi hi c ki jagtar di awaaz mere kanna vich payi. "chall hun keh eteh hi khare rehna sari umaar, main bhukh nall mareya ja rehya teh eh pata nahin kere khawab layi jandi hai. main tan tang aa geya es janani toh".
Jagtar deh is raviyeh toh mai anjaan nahin c par eh sab kujh aaj ravi deh samne ho rehya c, par fer v main apne mann nu paka kita ki mere teh jagtar vich jo v chal rehya us karkeh main ravi nall oh dobara nahin karna. ravi di future life bachaun waste mainu changi patni wang rehna pehna hai jida main pehlan rehndi c. jagtar diyaan galla sun keh main chup kar jandi c teh aago kujh nahin kehndi c. main murr us tara rehan da faisla kar leya.
jehri kujh ghanta ka pehla gashtian wang apne putt toh chud rahi c oh aurat nu main fir toh apne andar mar ditti. eh jo v c changa nahin ho rehya jis karkeh jagtar naal main khul keh gall karan da faisla kitta. sadde vich ehja v kujh nahin jo kade theek v na ho sake.
Main chu karkeh car kol gayi teh jagtar deh dusre passe ja keh khar gayi. hun tak jo hoya c usnu ignore karkeh main khush hon da natak karan laggi. jidan hi main jagtar naal ja keh khari hoi ravi mere wal dekhan lagga, mainu pata c ki ravi mainu sawaliyaa najaran naal dekh rehya hai par main injh behave kitta ki oh uteh hai hi nahin.
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"mummy nu ki ho gya". main bahut jayada hairan c. asin hune tohri der pehla duniya di sab toh wadiya chudai kar keh hate c teh asi ik duje nu changi tara chusya teh chudya c. fer mummy ehdan kyun behave kar rahe neh. ik dam ehja ki ho gya ki mummy neh mere wal dekhya v nahin.
uhna wal dekh lag rehya c ki oh roo keh v aaye neh. Eh bencho sala ho ki rehya. Teh dad nu ki hoya oh mummy naal ehdan kyun gall kar rahe neh. ravi yaar pakka koi tan salla chakar hai dona da jo mainu das nahin rahe.
main haje eh soch hi rehya c ki mere dimaag vich aaya ki kiteh dad nu pata tan nahin lag geya, dad neh sanu kiteh dekh tan nahin litta. nahin nahin jekar dekh litta hunda hun tak dad neh mainu mar hi dena c.
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"Shukar hai nimmi toh aa gayi". oh haje v gusse vich mere wal dekh rehya c. "challo hun dasso kite khana hai is dhabe teh yaan fer agle koi restaurant teh"? jagtar neh ravi wal dekh keh puchhya.
Ravi apne khayala vich khoya hoya c teh main apne. sade dona kolo jawab na hon karkeh jagtar neh aap hi fisala kar leya.
"oh dekho 1 km baad ik punjabi Restaurant hai." Haweli - duniya da sab toh wadiya punjabi khaana. Poster dekh keh tan lagda hai ki restaurant wadiya hona, ki kehna ravi. ki khan da mann hai veg keh non-veg?
"yes dekhan nu tan wadiya lagda, hmmm non-veg khan nu bara dil kar rehya hai." Ravi neh kehya, oh haje v phone vich pata nahin ki dekh rehya c.
Fer uhneh mere wal dekhya teh ik shararti muskaan nal kehya "non-veg vich agar fish mil jawe tan maja aa jawe"
Ravi di gal sun keh sharam nal mere gall lall ho gaye. hun khul keh double meaning gall kar rehya c. "haye rabba, phudi chatwaye nu v arsa ho gya." ik wari mere dimag vich aaya teh mera hassa nikal gya, par duje pal hi main apne aap teh kabu paaya teh apne nall kita hoya wada yaad kita.
Apne aap teh kabu paa keh main ravi wal ghuri vaat keh dekhya teh kalle bull hilla keh us nu NAA kehya.
par pata nahin main eh shabad kida bol gaye "hmm, fish theek hai naale fresh fish tan hundi v bahut swaad hai."
"bahut wadiya, challo fer fata fat gaddi vich baitho teh pahunchiye apni manjil teh, poster teh lagya hoya sign keh rehya hai ki sirf 1km dor hi hai, asin 10 mts vich uteh pahunch jana hai." ehni gal kar keh asi sarre gaddi vich baithan lage.
Ravi bari utsukta naal mere baithan da intjar kar rehya c. usnu shayad lagya c ki pehlan di tara main usdi godi vich bathungi., par main usde upar jaroor baithi par uhdeh lun teh nahin balki pattan teh par oh v udar leh passe jider box paye hoye c, tan jo mere ravi naal main jayada touch na hova. Boxes nu hor tohra jehya daba keh main comfortable ho keh baithan di koshish kar rahi c.
Aaramdayak jaga na banan karkeh main tak keh boxes wal dhyan naal dekhya, eh sab karde nu main ravi deyan akhaan di tapish apne shareer teh mehsoos kar sakdi c, par main jina ho sake us ton duri bana keh rakhan di koshish kar rahi c.
Agar Main, shoteh dabbya nu agar main sahi tarike naal adjust kara tan piccheh paye dabbya upar aa sakde neh. hmm eh theek rahega. fer main dhyan naal dekhya ki jehra box bichli seat teh peya hai us vich jayada saman nahin hai, jo ravi neh jald baji vich hi rakhe c.
ik 20 saal deh muneh toh ehni expect nahin kar sakdeh ko is cheez wal dhyan dawe. main us vich paye kapreya nu sahi tareke naal tah laga ditte teh dabbe deh ik passe set kar ditte, kush kapre main seat de thale rakh ditteh pairan kol jis naal dabbe vich bahut jaga ban gayi.
dabbe nu ik paseyo changi tara jor lagan naal oh ikatha ho gya teh hun mainu baithan vich koi dikat nahin c. mainu apne teh maan mehsoos hoya. hun main aaram naal baith sakdi c.
eh sab main is layi kita c ki agar main fer dobara ravi deh upar baithi rehndi tan main apne aap nu roknahin pana c teh fer dobara sariyan hadda par kar janiya c jo ki main nahin chahundi c. Par mainu nahin pata c ki jo main eh jaga banayi hai eh mere kinneh kam aaon wali hai.
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"Hun bhencho eh ki sayapa hai" kush tan garbar hai. "mummy neh sara saman hilla keh jaga bana layi, ehna maja millan toh baad v mummy main mere uppar kyun nahin baithna chahundeh? meri tan samaj toh bahar hai bhencho sala ho ki rehya."
Mummy nu eh sab galat kyun lag rehya? main mummy nu kinna payar karda. jado tak main uhna naal hai main uhna di puri care karunga dad toh v jayada. hun tan bund marawe bapu. Waiseh v jis hisab naal mummy nu treat kar rahe neh gandu ho gya lagda bapu mera.
Mainu hun pata karna pehna mummy ehdan kyun behave kar rahe neh. shayad ik hi postion vich karan naal uhna kiteh koi takleef tan nahin ho gayi, bencho kiteh jayada jor di tan nahin phudi marli main mummy di. Ho v sakda hai hai main haje 20 saal da hi han josh vich aa keh kiteh jayada jor di tan nahin ho gya.
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"Mummy, tusi theek ho? main kujh galat kitta?" ravi di sawal sun keh mainu usteh bahut taras aaya. is vich usdi koi galti nahin c. mainu khayal rakhna chahida c. main maa han usdi. mainu eh sab shuru hon toh pehlan rok dena chahida c.
main usde gall teh hath ferde hoye holi jahe kehya, "ravi mainu maafkarde, sadevich jo kush v hoya, eh dobara nahin ho sakda, theek hai?"
Meri gall sun keh ravi da dil tut gya. usda tutya hoya dil teh utrya hoya muh dekh mere dil vich v ik tees lagi, "Toh kush v galat nahin kitta, saade vich jo kush v hoya us naal mainu life vich pehli vaari ehna maja milliya." teh main uhnu ik smile ditti.
"Par eh dobara nahin ho sakda, theek hai?" haje asi gal kar hi rahe c ki jagtar neh gaane hauli kitte.
"waiseh nimmi toh ehna time kyun laga ditta bathroom vich? mainu eh samaj nahin aaondi tainu bathroom vich eh ki karna hunda?" Main rearview shesshe vich jagtar wal dekhya jo ki ik kamina hassi hass rehya c.
Eh hassi main pehlan v kayi vari dekh chuki haa, eh hassa uhdon aaonda hai jadooh sharab de nashe vich yaan mainu tang karan layi aaonda hai, yaan fer mere naal laran da koi bahan chahida hunda hai. fer main usdiyaan akhaan vich dekhya teh usi waqt mainu samaj aa gya ki eh kutta gaddi chalaonda hoya sharab pee rehya hai.
Ehneh pakka kiteh na kiteh sharab di botle chupa keh rakhi hai. Is sharab peen di aadat toh main anjaan nahin c. hun tan main gaur v nahin kardi c keh eh kinni drink kardeh neh.
Mainu pata hai ki beshoomar paisa aaon naal isda dimag kharab ho gya hai teh hun eh ravi nu hostel toh leh keh jana jisteh oh haje v naraj c ki jo eh chahundeh c ravi neh oh nahi kita.
Mainu jagtar di is halat teh usnal hamdardi c. par hun isdi eh aadat toh main tang aa gayi c. main is toh azaad ho keh rehna chahundi c. par fr v main aapne maan nu samjaya teh is naal rehan da faisla kar chuki c.
Mainu eh v yakeen c ki eh ehni nahin peengeh jis naal sade sareyan di jaan khatre vich pave, par kehndeh neh sharabi da kujh nahin pata lagda. sehat wallo takra shareer c jis karkeh khurak v ohdan di c teh sharab da nasha v late hi charda c. normally v jagtar 7 peg tan la hi lehnda c.
"mainu haje tak yakeen nahin hunda koi ehna time bathroom vich kida laga sakda hai? mainu pata hai ki tu is trip teh aaona nahin chahundi c par tere eh bathroom deh trip kar keh baar baar rukan naal appan ghar pahuchan vich late ho jana. sara plan hil jana, tainu hor koi problem tan nahin?" apne hath naal hawa vich hilaondeh hoye kehya.
Jehri jagtar problem di gal kar rehya c oh main jandi c, teh jagtar v janda c ki us problem da jikar hundeh hi mere teh ki beet di c. Kujh saal pehlan main birth pills khaniya band kar dittian c. ravi v haje jayada wada nahin c teh ik din sharab ddeh nashe vich jagtar neh mainu far leya teh changi chudai kitti. josh josh vich mainu v khayal na rehya ki main goliyan khanayi band kar dittian neh. ohi hoya jisda dar c. main pregnant ho gayi.
Jado mere periods miss hoye tan main pehlan dhyan nahin ditta kai wari time aage piccheh ho janda hai. jado time 1 hafta uppar ho gya tan mainu lagya ki doctor naal consult kar lehna chahida hai. Doctor neh jado check kita tan usne mainu dasya ki main pregnant ha.
mainu lagya jagtar eh khabar sun keh khush howega kyunki ik wari fer toh ghar vich ehni wadi khushi aa rahi c. jado main eh khabar jagtar nu dasi tan eh tan ik dam taish vich aa gaye ki eh koi umar hai bachheh karan di, sharekke wale ki kehngeh ki munda bus kujh salla vich college jaan wala teh eh dono jaane es kaam nu lag gaye.
"Toh ehni laparwah kida ho sakdi hai nimmi, naale teri oh dawayi kitteh hai jis nal bachha nahin hunda, toh ehn murkh kida ho gayi," eh sab jagtar neh iko sah vich bol ditta teh hor pata nahin ki ki boli gaye. Jina dukh usdin jagtar neh mainu ditta c oh main kade das nahin sakdi.
Kafi time tak jagtar neh mere nal gal nahin kitti, har roj raj keh sharab vich ghar aaona teh aa keh bas do chaar galla kadnian teh so jana. Fer es sab toh teh ravi bare soch keh main abortion da faisla kitta teh bina kise nu dase abortion karwa aai. mere andar us waqt sab kujh mar chukya c.
jado jagtar ghar aaye tan main roti dindeh hoye bas ehna hi keh paayi, main abortion karwa ditta hai. tusi har roj sharab na piya karo. jagtar bus mere muh wal hi dekhdeh rahe. Main andron tut chuki c, ravi deh samne kujh nahin kehna chahundi c is layi bathroom vich ja keh takriban do tin ghante tak rondi rahi. jado jagtar nu samaj aaya ki main ki kar aayi ha teh kujh sharab da nasha uttrya tan bathroom da darwaja khar ka keh maafi mangan lage. usdin v jagtar neh bahut kujh kehya mainu manaon layi eh v kehya ki appan ik wari hor try kar lehneh ha.
Eh karan c jis naal mere teh jagtar vich duri aa gayi c. Par aaj fer, sharab deh nashe vich, jagtar neh ohi problem wali gall cher ditti c jis naal mere andar ik tees jahi lagi, na chahundeh hoye v merian akhan bhar aaian, main kujh na bol saki.
Asin dowe ik duje kina payar karde c. jagtar ne ik wari mere wal sheshe vichon dekhya, jis vich sirf meramuh hi najar aa rehya c. hor usnu kujh najar nahin aaya us vich lokya hoya dard v nahin.
"nimmi, tera drama fer shuru ho gya ron wala." mere wal ghuri vat ke dekhya. Nashe vich oh ki bol gya jad usnu pata lagya tan ik dum apni awaaz vich narmi leyandeh hoye, "Nimmi mera oh matlab nahin c, main tan bas ehi keh rehya c ki agar appa bar bar bathroom layi ruka geh tan ghar pahuchan vich late ho jana. haje appa 2 din hor safar karna." ik wari fer mere wal dekhya "dekh nimmi, main sorry feel karda apne subah layi, tainu pata tan hai ehna saman set karna fer do din layi car chalaona is sab neh mainu khija ditta.
"Mera maksad tainu dukhi karna nahin c, main maaf kardi." fer mere wal dekhdeh hoye kehya.
Main v usi tara sheshe vichon gusse naal jagtar wal dekhya, jo ki hun road wal dekhrehya c, teh usi waqt main apne man andar ik faisla kitta. mere andar ehna gussa wad gya ki mainu aap samaj nahin aayi ki main ehda kida jagtar bare soch sakdi ha. Bencho tu hai is kabil, khassi sala. jehre hath tohri der pehlan mere putt deh gall sehla rahe c usnu samja rahe c ohi hath hun haul hauli usdeh muh toh hundeh hoye chaure seneh teh pahunch gaye teh othon hunda hoya sida uhdeh lun teh ja tikya.
Shaitani hassi pure chereh teh dekhi ja sakdi c, main hun hauli hauli ravi deh lun nu palosan lagi, jida mere hath usde lun tikiya lun neh jhatkeh marne shuru kar ditte.
Jagtar di berukhi neh mere andar di kaam vasna nu jaga ditta. ik wari fer jagtar nu apne man vich gaal kadi"bund marawe jagtar jite marji. tainu ki pata haram deya main picchli seat te ki gul khalare neh." bahut ho gya ik changi patni da farz nibhaondeh hoye, meri har ik koshish aaj jagtar neh khatam kar ditti.
Mere teh jagtar vich jo c oh khatam hoya hai baki kujh nahin. eteh main chup reh keh ik changi patni da farz nibha rahi c par jagtar neh abortion wali gal kar keh sab kujh tar tar kar ditta oh v mere putt de samneh.
mere andar ik wari fer toh kujh hoya, eh pehlan v hoya c jado ravi nh mainu chodya c, par hun mere andar ik vari
fer kamuk aurat neh janam leh leya.
jeh main apne putt di gashti bani ha tan fer main ehji gashti ban keh dikhaongi ki koi soch v nahin sakda. "to akhir karna ki hai nimmi" mere andron fer ik wari awaaz aayi. Jagtar toh badla lehna hun tan main.
sadi 20 saal viyahi jinagi vich jagtar neh mere naal jo salok kita c oh saara mainu yaad aaon laga. oh sab galla yaad karkeh main man vich socheya, "theek kita tusi aaj, jeh tusi aaj eh bartav mere naal karde tan main andro andro mar jana c. theek hai tusi meri life kharab kitti hai hun dekhmain ki kardi ha, apne putt toh fer chudwaongi oh v duji wari."
Mera fiasla badlan da karan ehi c ki jo kujh nere teh jagtar vich c oh khatam. main ravi di life karkeh jagtar nu chad keh tan nahin jaongi par sade vich pati patni wala rishta, mere najar vich tn khatam. Waiseh v eh rishta ta kafi time toh khatam ho cgukya c, par mainu aaj realize hoya. ehna saala toh sharab pee keh mainu galla kadniyan, business trip teh ja keh gashtian chudniayan, eh sba neh mainu apne hi putt toh chudan layi majboor kar ditta.
Kamini hassi naal main mehsoos kitta ki is trip teh aaon naal mere teh ravi deh vich kujh nawa shuru ho gya. Shayad eh ik dujhe di chudai toh v wad keh hai. eh hai tan bahut kujh, eh ki hai is bare main baad vich socbhungi par is waqt, mainu payaar di nahin kissi hor chiz di lor hai.
Main hune isi waqt chudai karni oh v ehni buri tara ki koi soch v na sake. mere haath haje v ravi deh lun teh chal rehya c, apne dimag nu ikagar karkeh main badi halemi naal jagtar nu kehya, "main jandi ha mere bathroom jan karkeh time ho gya, main v sorry ha, par sach eh hai ki Nirmal Didi da phone aa gya c, push rahe c ki raste vich koi takleef tan nahin ho rahi teh sade kol ruk keh jaongeh yan sida ghar jaongeh."
"ohnu v kinni fikar hai, ehna lamba safar karna kehra saukha."
"han han mainu pata uhnu kinni fikar hai. teri hi bhen hai, bhenchoda"main man vich socheya.
Nirmal bare sun keh jagtar da mood hor theek ho gya, "Harban da ki hall hai?"
"Nirmal didi kehndeh c ki hun dawaian da asar hona shuru hoya, pehlan nalo kafi fark hai."
ik passe main jagtar naal gal kar rahi c teh duje passe main ravi da haath fareya teh apne pattan utteh rakh ditta- jehra haath pehlan uhneh mainu garam karan layi rakhya c.
Jidan hi main ravi da haath apne patta teh rakhya, uhnhe mere wal sawilya najar nal dekhya. Main bullan teh hassa leya kehya "kujh nahin hunda", apne khasan wal dekhya teh hauli jahi uhdi kan vich kehya "bund marawe tera piyo."
Ravi nu hor izzajat di lor nahin c, mere walo pehal paa keh ohde bullan teh hassa a geya teh sida usneh apna haath meri tapdi phudi teh rakh ditta.
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