Romance An Old Debt has to be Paid..by salir

[RCF]

Here speaks M.: 

Since writing the next chapter is partly up to me, I feel that I have to answer your question about myself, Meena.

 
Firstly about sexuality, or whether I am missing something in my marriage and if yes why do I not mention it:
In my marriage, sexually and otherwise, emotionally, socially, or whatever, things are going much better than maybe over 80 percent of couples as far as I know.
We talk about ourselves, our feelings and emotional or physical desires and demands, in comparison, more than 90% of other couples!
Believe me, and maybe that's the problem, that we're so open despite everything and that causes conflicts (material for this story!). The others have nothing to say because everything (apparently and superficially, observed from the outside, externally in relation to the inner feelings of the person and externally from the marriage observed by others) is fine, but is it really so?
What I have done or will do (also in the sense of this story) will always amaze you, and maybe that's a good thing! That makes the story more interesting and worth following for you as a reader.
Wouldn't it be boring if I (in last chapter) had got dressed and sent J. home and waited obediently for my husband? (but I'll say right away that probably 80 percent of women had done that in the situation, but deep down they wanted something different, and they didn't like what they do!), then we could end this chapter and move on to the agenda.
You cannot force someone and his or her actions and reactions into clichés... We are unique.
You can tell someone your opinion about their behavior and even give them a label, a reckless person, an idiot, a sex-obsessed person, a slut, a frigid person, a cheater and so on or call the activities wrong or right...
But never ask WHY!
We are who we are and we should be unique because we have feelings, reason and instincts at the same time that separate us and make us unique... And I am Meena!
Yes I am Meena! I'm passionate about everything I do, why not, I do everything with passion and feeling my study, my Job, in my marriage, friendschip, family, and… sex… but I try to limit it and be careful...
 
If you read your opinion, the part that concerns me, and proceed as you wrote, then we don't have a story that goes on for hundreds of pages to tell, sorry, it would be a short story and moreover boring!
Wait for me still...

And call me whatever you want but follow my story!
You will certainly continue to do so, as I know you...

 YOU ALL,

M.

Yes if it was a story my words would not have come at all because I know why Author would write that way..He would obviously want the female lead to encourage Jalal to take the story forward.

Alas..this is not a story, this is your life and when I read your life..I question myself why Meena did what she did at that time though logically it would have been a better call to go behind Nadir to find out what his intentions are to get clarity rather than play along with out truly understanding the situation. Aren't you guys just back from a big fight? Wasn't he upset with you for taking forward with Jalal with out him in the picture and hiding details about your meetings with Jalal so for me it doesn't make sense why would you fall for this play with out questioning Nadir.

I know we are all humans and we do things sometimes that can't be explained but if I am coming from a breakup or almost breakup. I would do things more carefully. My questions are not to explain your story or how story will be 100 pages, My questions are to know your thoughts at that time when you made that call. Its as simple as that.

Also about you being passionate about every thing you do..and its truly admirable. Show me one person who doesn't like passionate people. People love to be in a relationship who are passionate about everything that they do..My concern was you are more passionate with others than with Nadir unless there is a role play when you have sex with Nadir like that time when you guys included Mansi..that was the most passionate sex you guys had but that is a result of your dream with Mansi and I did not see later you guys addressed that issue. Even now I feel your passion for Jalal seems stronger as if you have a connection with Jalal who was absent in your life before a month.....I don't know if you guys sit and talk about this issue in future but as of now I did not see Nadir and you talk about it...

Anyways my questions seem to offend you ..sorry about that.

~RCF