01-01-2020, 11:05 PM
My boyfriend in college once drugged me and shared me with his room mate.
I felt cheated and was obviously very furious. So I dumped him.
Now I am married, but my husband seems to be more interested in alcohol than me.
Even on a new year's day, he's out partying with his friends leaving me alone at home.
When I am lonely(which happens a lot), I sometimes wonder if I would have been happier with my boyfriend.
It has sort of become a fantasy, thinking about all the possibilities.
I know its cheating even to have such thoughts, but I don't know what to do. They are coming into my mind almost every day.
I feel trapped and confused.
I felt cheated and was obviously very furious. So I dumped him.
Now I am married, but my husband seems to be more interested in alcohol than me.
Even on a new year's day, he's out partying with his friends leaving me alone at home.
When I am lonely(which happens a lot), I sometimes wonder if I would have been happier with my boyfriend.
It has sort of become a fantasy, thinking about all the possibilities.
I know its cheating even to have such thoughts, but I don't know what to do. They are coming into my mind almost every day.
I feel trapped and confused.